Grammy-winning vocalist Billie Eilish has spoken astir an addiction to watching pornography, starting astatine property 11, and however it gave her nightmares and messed her up erstwhile she started dating.
Eilish, who turns 20 connected Saturday, was speaking connected "The Howard Stern Show" connected Sirius XM vigor connected Monday.
"I deliberation porn is simply a disgrace. I utilized to ticker a batch of porn, to beryllium honest. I started watching porn erstwhile I was, like, 11," the "Bad Guy" vocalist said, saying it helped her consciousness arsenic if she were chill and "one of the guys."
"I deliberation it truly destroyed my encephalon and I consciousness incredibly devastated that I was exposed to truthful overmuch porn," she added, saying she suffered nightmares due to the fact that immoderate of the contented she watched was truthful convulsive and abusive.
Eilish, who was homeschooled successful Los Angeles and has 7 Grammy Awards, is known for her often acheronian lyrics.
In the ballad "Male Fantasy" connected her 2nd medium "Happier Than Ever," she sings astir being location unsocial and distracting herself with pornography arsenic she recalls a breached relationship.
Eilish said she is present aggravated astatine herself for reasoning it was acceptable to ticker porn.
"The archetypal fewer times I, you know, had sex, I was not saying nary to things that were not good. It was due to the fact that I thought that's what I was expected to beryllium attracted to," she said.
Eilish, who started her vocation wearing baggy apparel to forestall radical from commenting connected her body, became the youngest idiosyncratic successful past to triumph each 4 of the apical Grammy Awards successful the aforesaid twelvemonth erstwhile she took location the statuettes for caller artist, album, grounds and opus of the twelvemonth successful 2020 astatine property 18.
The vocalist said her fame had made it hard to date. "It's truly hard to conscionable radical when, you know, radical are either terrified of you oregon deliberation you're retired of their league," Eilish told Stern.
The vocalist besides revealed that she had a atrocious lawsuit of Covid-19 implicit the summer, which mightiness person killed her had she not been vaccinated.
She told Stern that she tested affirmative successful August and was sick for astir 2 months.
"I didn't dice and I wasn't going to dice but that doesn't instrumentality distant from however miserable I was. I mean it was terrible," she said.
Things could person been overmuch worse, however, if she had not been vaccinated. She said: "I privation it to beryllium wide that it's due to the fact that of the vaccine that I'm fine. I deliberation if I weren't vaccinated I would person similar died due to the fact that it was bad."